Post by findingnemo on Aug 31, 2009 3:12:43 GMT -5
Nero was driving, trying hard not to swerve as he repeatedly checked his phone. He didn't know what he was going to say to Ana or how to break it to her that Skye was being the way she was being. How was he going to tell her it even came about? He was going to tell her the truth. He was going to save her from her father but that led to other things... and... why the hell was this so fucked up? He pulled up to Ana's house and sat in his car for a minute to catch his breath. He then got out and made his way to Ana's door, his hands stuffed in his front pockets.
Ana had gotten Nero's message, but she thought nothing of it. She thought he was simply running late. She had no idea what was waiting. All Ana knew was she was happy. Sure she barely knew Nero, but getting to know someone was the best part about dating. Dating...was a foreign concept to Ana. Had she been the old Ana then she would have had Nero in her bed that first day, but she was a new Ana. Ana heard the door and smiled, "Thats Nero, Alek. Mommy's boyfriend." She smiled and went to answer the door. "Hello...please come in."
Nero smiled a little sheepishly and took a step in. "Hey you." he smiled as he hugged her... kind of tightly. The memories of what happened today just etched in his mind like some kind of nightmare. This whole thing was a nightmare. "How are you?" he asked her.
Ana hugged him back. She did not think anything of the tight hug. To her this must be how Nero hugged. Americans were werid, but in a good way. She smiled as he let her go. She had no idea what was coming. "I fine. Just been relaxing since this afternoon. How are you?" Something in his face told her her was struggling, but she ignored it.
He looked at her and shook his head. "I'm... not so good." he said as he took her over to the couch. "I need... to talk to you."
"Dinner is ready we can talk then. I put Alek down for bed, so tis just us. I hope tis okay." She said still smiling, "Still not better after this afternoon....I really am sorry."
Nero thought a moment. Was that the best thing to do? Talk over dinner? Or after? "I... Don't think that's a good idea."
Okay that did not sound good. Ana was scared now. She had no idea what to think. What was he going to say? "Okay....we can talk here." She said looking at him. "Whats wrong...something happen?"
Nero nodded. "And I believe in honesty... so... I'm not hiding this from you." he told her. "I know we havent even been dating for more than 24 hours but... I feel like I'm wrong here." he told her. "Skye was in trouble... I went to help her. And things happened. She... we... talked and... then she kissed me." he told her shaking his head. "I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do. I've dated her before but... I really like the idea of being with you." he told her. "In moving on and maybe... you know... giving my heart to you." he told her. "But I'm... in this abyss of... confusion." he said.
Ana was going to say something, but then Nero started talking. She listened as he spoke. The words he said shocked her. He kissed Skye. He kissed his ex. After their interaction she ahd seen Skye upset, was that why. Did Skye still like Nero? Did Nero still like Skye? Ana backed away from Nero and sat down. She needed a moment. "How....how do you feel...about Skye...if you want her....thats okay...."
Nero shook his head. "Ana... I love her... I always have... and it'll take me forever not to... but I want... I don't know what the hell I want. I miss things with her... but I... I want something new..." he said shaking his head and looking at her. "I want to... I want to be with you." he whipered.
"How can you love her....and not want to be with her?" Ana did not understand that. "How can you expect to move on if you love her...." In Ana's mind most people were with the person they loved. Then again she did want Nero to, but to keep him from Skye....was that selfish.
Nero shook his head. "It's something that not many people understand with me. I gave my heart to her... and she sort unintentionally of broke it. I loved her... I love her... but I don't think I could put myself through that torture... I want to move on, I think." he told her truthfully. "I'm afraid of being hurt again..." he said.
Ana sighed. Why did she feel the sudden need to cry. She did not want him with Skye, but if he still loved her...then how could she compete with that. How could she compete when the girl he loved was close by. "How do you know she will hurt you again unless you try......anwer this...can you really move on...can you find someone to love more then you love her?"
Nero looked at her. "Ana... I think I can... I've found something in you I like so much that I might actually... grow to love it." he said. "It's too early to tell... because we barely know each other." he said. "But I think that what I see in you... and your beautiful family... is something I could get so used to... something I could see myself with..." he said. "I need to move on... and I think you could be the one to... help me with that." he told her.
Ana felt a sigh of relief when Nero said that, but she also did not want to get hurt. She did not want to one day have Nero come to her and say he wanted Skye. Then again how would she know if she did not try. Sometimes the biggest risk was the most rewarding. Was Ana willing to risk a broken heart? She was upset right now...even a little mad, but Nero and her had only been dating a day, so could she really hold it against him. Ana was quiet a moment and then she heard Alek fussing on the monitor. She was almost thankful for the interruption. "I...I will be back." She said as she got up to check on her son. She still felt the need to cry.
Nero was sad... he felt like he betrayed Ana... but he also felt like he was betraying Skye. He was not the one to face things like this and stay stable... He used to turn to drugs... to pot... but... he didnt now... He sort of wished he did at this point. He wondered if he should just leave before she decided to get angry at him... but he stayed.
Ana walked into Alek's room and picked him up. She held him close a moment. She had only been dating Nero a day and she wanted to cry. Was that even normal. She liked Nero, and she wanted to get to know him, but the idea of him loving his ex adn them kissing made her doubt that Nero could ever move on and that he was only kidding himself. "What do I do Alek?" She asked her some softly not expecting an answer for obvious reasons. Ana changed him and made sure he was okay before laying him back down. She stayed a few extra moments, letting a few tears fall before she returned to Nero. Ana whiped her eyes before walking back outside and taking another seat. "i wont lie...I feel hurt.....but I understand....you love Skye...but I don't want to get hurt either."
Nero looked at her. He understood that completely. "I know... and I... understand if you never want to see me again." he said. "But I hope we can get through this and... work through it."
Ana eyed him, "But I must ask....once more...are you sure? You sure you do not want Skye? You sure you not fooling yourself and wishing for something that might not be true." When she said that she meant is he wishing it was over when it really was not.
Nero's eyes sort of went wide. He might have took that the wrong way. "Ana... you don't think we should be together?" he asked her.
"No, not at all." Ana stood up and walked to Nero. She bent down to talk to him. Ana touched his cheek, "Tis not what I meant. I mean...." Sometimes the fact that Ana spoke broken English could be a problem, "I mean are you sure you can get over her...because if you...then I want to try....."
Nero nodded and put his hand over her hand. "Yes... I want to try..." he whispered. "I want to get over her... and I want to be with you." he said. "I wish this never happened... I would never have put you through this."
Ana gave him a small smile, "Tis okay it happened. You told me....tis the best part." Okay now that sounded wrong even her, "I mean...you told me truth...that good right..." It was like she could not think. The more emotional she got the worse her English became. And Ana was not even inlove with Nero, she just felt some attraction. And she wanted to persue it. "I stil, but I see you are too...." If this had been the old Ana, she would seduce Nero here and now to keep him. However, Ana learned that most guys did not like slutty girls. So Ana was not going to revert. So she just smiled and leaned up to kiss Nero.
Nero pulled her into his arms, slowly closing the gap between them. "Forgive me for this." he whispered before kissing her gently.
Ana smiled before she kissed him, "You would not be here if I did not forgive...." Which was true. The only thing that had kept her from kicking his ass out adn telling him to go back to Skye was the attraction she felt with him. The fact that he liked her son and was not overwhelmed by her family. Besides, on the selfish side, she did not want to lose him so quickly. If a guy told a girl he was in love with another girl, it made sense to stay away. Not in Ana's mind appeaently. She decided to take a risk....so she kissed him back.
Nero pulled her closer, deepening the kiss. He barely wanted to break it. Dinner was getting cold... he didn't care.. that's what they made microwaves for!
The only thing Ana hoped for at the moment, was that Nero was not thinking of Skye while kissing her. Selfishly she hoped that Nero had forgotten his kiss with Skye as they kissed. All Ana really knew at this moment was she was either going to be happy or end up a fool for trustung a guy who claimed to love another. But for Ana it was worth it. She responded to the deepened kiss.
Nero held her in his arms. He felt like an utter ass for even leting himself be in the position of letting Skye kiss him... after he told her he wanted to make things work with Ana... to move on... he let his mind slip into an abyss of nothing as he kissed Ana.
Ana had to admit. She was not use to this. Liking a guy who liked another. Usually Ana was the one stealing the guy. However, Ana was different. She was a better person. Then again Nero did not know her past. Would he still like her if he knew she what she use to do....should she tell him. Ana broke the kiss and eyed him. "Since you told me truth I should tell you truth...."
Nero lifted a brow. Uh oh...
Ana sighed, "I have a past. And not a good one....." Ana looked at the ground and then back up at him. She sighed. "I use to be what you might call a bad girl.....honestly I do not know who Alek's dad is...I think i know...I have a pretty good idea, but I am not sure. I use to....I use to do drugs, and sleep with many guys....and drink....i act out....I changed once I found out I was pregnant, but my past is not pretty."
Nero looked at her. Her past was her past. "I... dont hold your past against you. There's nothing in there that could hurt me..." he told her. "I used to do drugs but... I stopped... cleaned myself up. An occasional cigarette but... nothing more." he told her. "Your past is your past."
That gave Ana a sigh of relief. You would not believe how many guys judged a girl based on her past. Sometimes she felt ashamed that she had no real idea who Alek's dad was. Sure she was 75% sure she knew who it was, but still 25% unsure was a big number. Instead of replying she just kissed him again. Damn he was a good guy. Ana felt lucky.
Nero felt himself melting into another kiss. God it felt good to kiss her... it was like... ecstacy... and he would know.
Was it wrong to feel such an attraction after just meeting a guy. Lust would be the answer she was seeking. She was definatly in lust. Could there be more....well she was willing to find out. She probably should be more angry and she probably should be yelling and fighting, but it was one mistake. She could forgive it.
Nero broke the kiss long enough to look into her eyes. He caressed her cheek gently. "Ana... I wanna... I wanna love you." he told her. "I wanna give YOU my heart."
Ana had to admit. As he spoke the words, she felt it was too early to talk about falling in love and giving some your heart. It had only been 24 hours, but the words were nice to hear. Maybe she was just a girl seeking a guy to want to love her and here the guy was offering it to her. Ana smiled, "And i hope one day you do give me your heart.....I am willing to try...."
Nero nodded. "One day..." he whispered. He knew it was way too early to know... but what he did know was that he needed to move on... He needed to get away from the idea of heartbreak..
Ana hoped so. Then again she was young. And Young girls were always falling in and out of love. Breaking up and dating were a part of life. There was no way to tell if her and Nero would make it that far after 24 hours, but dating was a part of life. "I hope so...because I am sure you will have mine by then."
Nero smiled at her, he caressed her cheek again and pulled her into another kiss. It then occured to him that they had their first kiss... in the heat of all of the drama... and it was so... great.. and... special.
Ana kissed Nero back. It had not dawned her that they had not had their first kiss yet. She was just lost in the kiss. It was such a good kiss. Which was good, because usually a kiss told Ana if she liked a guy or not and according to this kiss she liked Nero. A lot
Nero ran his other hand gently up her arm and let it rest on her other cheek. He then put his arms around her gently. Was this going too far for them? He didn't know... it was just a kiss right?
Ana was not about to push anything. She did not want to move too fast...too soon and she had a feeling sleeping with him would seem desperate. Plus that was the old her. Not the new her. But she enjoyed the kiss. How could she break it. Ana had no idea what she was in for, but now she was in. Ana broke the kiss and put her forhead against Nero's, "We should eat or else I may not stop kissing you..."
Ana had gotten Nero's message, but she thought nothing of it. She thought he was simply running late. She had no idea what was waiting. All Ana knew was she was happy. Sure she barely knew Nero, but getting to know someone was the best part about dating. Dating...was a foreign concept to Ana. Had she been the old Ana then she would have had Nero in her bed that first day, but she was a new Ana. Ana heard the door and smiled, "Thats Nero, Alek. Mommy's boyfriend." She smiled and went to answer the door. "Hello...please come in."
Nero smiled a little sheepishly and took a step in. "Hey you." he smiled as he hugged her... kind of tightly. The memories of what happened today just etched in his mind like some kind of nightmare. This whole thing was a nightmare. "How are you?" he asked her.
Ana hugged him back. She did not think anything of the tight hug. To her this must be how Nero hugged. Americans were werid, but in a good way. She smiled as he let her go. She had no idea what was coming. "I fine. Just been relaxing since this afternoon. How are you?" Something in his face told her her was struggling, but she ignored it.
He looked at her and shook his head. "I'm... not so good." he said as he took her over to the couch. "I need... to talk to you."
"Dinner is ready we can talk then. I put Alek down for bed, so tis just us. I hope tis okay." She said still smiling, "Still not better after this afternoon....I really am sorry."
Nero thought a moment. Was that the best thing to do? Talk over dinner? Or after? "I... Don't think that's a good idea."
Okay that did not sound good. Ana was scared now. She had no idea what to think. What was he going to say? "Okay....we can talk here." She said looking at him. "Whats wrong...something happen?"
Nero nodded. "And I believe in honesty... so... I'm not hiding this from you." he told her. "I know we havent even been dating for more than 24 hours but... I feel like I'm wrong here." he told her. "Skye was in trouble... I went to help her. And things happened. She... we... talked and... then she kissed me." he told her shaking his head. "I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do. I've dated her before but... I really like the idea of being with you." he told her. "In moving on and maybe... you know... giving my heart to you." he told her. "But I'm... in this abyss of... confusion." he said.
Ana was going to say something, but then Nero started talking. She listened as he spoke. The words he said shocked her. He kissed Skye. He kissed his ex. After their interaction she ahd seen Skye upset, was that why. Did Skye still like Nero? Did Nero still like Skye? Ana backed away from Nero and sat down. She needed a moment. "How....how do you feel...about Skye...if you want her....thats okay...."
Nero shook his head. "Ana... I love her... I always have... and it'll take me forever not to... but I want... I don't know what the hell I want. I miss things with her... but I... I want something new..." he said shaking his head and looking at her. "I want to... I want to be with you." he whipered.
"How can you love her....and not want to be with her?" Ana did not understand that. "How can you expect to move on if you love her...." In Ana's mind most people were with the person they loved. Then again she did want Nero to, but to keep him from Skye....was that selfish.
Nero shook his head. "It's something that not many people understand with me. I gave my heart to her... and she sort unintentionally of broke it. I loved her... I love her... but I don't think I could put myself through that torture... I want to move on, I think." he told her truthfully. "I'm afraid of being hurt again..." he said.
Ana sighed. Why did she feel the sudden need to cry. She did not want him with Skye, but if he still loved her...then how could she compete with that. How could she compete when the girl he loved was close by. "How do you know she will hurt you again unless you try......anwer this...can you really move on...can you find someone to love more then you love her?"
Nero looked at her. "Ana... I think I can... I've found something in you I like so much that I might actually... grow to love it." he said. "It's too early to tell... because we barely know each other." he said. "But I think that what I see in you... and your beautiful family... is something I could get so used to... something I could see myself with..." he said. "I need to move on... and I think you could be the one to... help me with that." he told her.
Ana felt a sigh of relief when Nero said that, but she also did not want to get hurt. She did not want to one day have Nero come to her and say he wanted Skye. Then again how would she know if she did not try. Sometimes the biggest risk was the most rewarding. Was Ana willing to risk a broken heart? She was upset right now...even a little mad, but Nero and her had only been dating a day, so could she really hold it against him. Ana was quiet a moment and then she heard Alek fussing on the monitor. She was almost thankful for the interruption. "I...I will be back." She said as she got up to check on her son. She still felt the need to cry.
Nero was sad... he felt like he betrayed Ana... but he also felt like he was betraying Skye. He was not the one to face things like this and stay stable... He used to turn to drugs... to pot... but... he didnt now... He sort of wished he did at this point. He wondered if he should just leave before she decided to get angry at him... but he stayed.
Ana walked into Alek's room and picked him up. She held him close a moment. She had only been dating Nero a day and she wanted to cry. Was that even normal. She liked Nero, and she wanted to get to know him, but the idea of him loving his ex adn them kissing made her doubt that Nero could ever move on and that he was only kidding himself. "What do I do Alek?" She asked her some softly not expecting an answer for obvious reasons. Ana changed him and made sure he was okay before laying him back down. She stayed a few extra moments, letting a few tears fall before she returned to Nero. Ana whiped her eyes before walking back outside and taking another seat. "i wont lie...I feel hurt.....but I understand....you love Skye...but I don't want to get hurt either."
Nero looked at her. He understood that completely. "I know... and I... understand if you never want to see me again." he said. "But I hope we can get through this and... work through it."
Ana eyed him, "But I must ask....once more...are you sure? You sure you do not want Skye? You sure you not fooling yourself and wishing for something that might not be true." When she said that she meant is he wishing it was over when it really was not.
Nero's eyes sort of went wide. He might have took that the wrong way. "Ana... you don't think we should be together?" he asked her.
"No, not at all." Ana stood up and walked to Nero. She bent down to talk to him. Ana touched his cheek, "Tis not what I meant. I mean...." Sometimes the fact that Ana spoke broken English could be a problem, "I mean are you sure you can get over her...because if you...then I want to try....."
Nero nodded and put his hand over her hand. "Yes... I want to try..." he whispered. "I want to get over her... and I want to be with you." he said. "I wish this never happened... I would never have put you through this."
Ana gave him a small smile, "Tis okay it happened. You told me....tis the best part." Okay now that sounded wrong even her, "I mean...you told me truth...that good right..." It was like she could not think. The more emotional she got the worse her English became. And Ana was not even inlove with Nero, she just felt some attraction. And she wanted to persue it. "I stil, but I see you are too...." If this had been the old Ana, she would seduce Nero here and now to keep him. However, Ana learned that most guys did not like slutty girls. So Ana was not going to revert. So she just smiled and leaned up to kiss Nero.
Nero pulled her into his arms, slowly closing the gap between them. "Forgive me for this." he whispered before kissing her gently.
Ana smiled before she kissed him, "You would not be here if I did not forgive...." Which was true. The only thing that had kept her from kicking his ass out adn telling him to go back to Skye was the attraction she felt with him. The fact that he liked her son and was not overwhelmed by her family. Besides, on the selfish side, she did not want to lose him so quickly. If a guy told a girl he was in love with another girl, it made sense to stay away. Not in Ana's mind appeaently. She decided to take a risk....so she kissed him back.
Nero pulled her closer, deepening the kiss. He barely wanted to break it. Dinner was getting cold... he didn't care.. that's what they made microwaves for!
The only thing Ana hoped for at the moment, was that Nero was not thinking of Skye while kissing her. Selfishly she hoped that Nero had forgotten his kiss with Skye as they kissed. All Ana really knew at this moment was she was either going to be happy or end up a fool for trustung a guy who claimed to love another. But for Ana it was worth it. She responded to the deepened kiss.
Nero held her in his arms. He felt like an utter ass for even leting himself be in the position of letting Skye kiss him... after he told her he wanted to make things work with Ana... to move on... he let his mind slip into an abyss of nothing as he kissed Ana.
Ana had to admit. She was not use to this. Liking a guy who liked another. Usually Ana was the one stealing the guy. However, Ana was different. She was a better person. Then again Nero did not know her past. Would he still like her if he knew she what she use to do....should she tell him. Ana broke the kiss and eyed him. "Since you told me truth I should tell you truth...."
Nero lifted a brow. Uh oh...
Ana sighed, "I have a past. And not a good one....." Ana looked at the ground and then back up at him. She sighed. "I use to be what you might call a bad girl.....honestly I do not know who Alek's dad is...I think i know...I have a pretty good idea, but I am not sure. I use to....I use to do drugs, and sleep with many guys....and drink....i act out....I changed once I found out I was pregnant, but my past is not pretty."
Nero looked at her. Her past was her past. "I... dont hold your past against you. There's nothing in there that could hurt me..." he told her. "I used to do drugs but... I stopped... cleaned myself up. An occasional cigarette but... nothing more." he told her. "Your past is your past."
That gave Ana a sigh of relief. You would not believe how many guys judged a girl based on her past. Sometimes she felt ashamed that she had no real idea who Alek's dad was. Sure she was 75% sure she knew who it was, but still 25% unsure was a big number. Instead of replying she just kissed him again. Damn he was a good guy. Ana felt lucky.
Nero felt himself melting into another kiss. God it felt good to kiss her... it was like... ecstacy... and he would know.
Was it wrong to feel such an attraction after just meeting a guy. Lust would be the answer she was seeking. She was definatly in lust. Could there be more....well she was willing to find out. She probably should be more angry and she probably should be yelling and fighting, but it was one mistake. She could forgive it.
Nero broke the kiss long enough to look into her eyes. He caressed her cheek gently. "Ana... I wanna... I wanna love you." he told her. "I wanna give YOU my heart."
Ana had to admit. As he spoke the words, she felt it was too early to talk about falling in love and giving some your heart. It had only been 24 hours, but the words were nice to hear. Maybe she was just a girl seeking a guy to want to love her and here the guy was offering it to her. Ana smiled, "And i hope one day you do give me your heart.....I am willing to try...."
Nero nodded. "One day..." he whispered. He knew it was way too early to know... but what he did know was that he needed to move on... He needed to get away from the idea of heartbreak..
Ana hoped so. Then again she was young. And Young girls were always falling in and out of love. Breaking up and dating were a part of life. There was no way to tell if her and Nero would make it that far after 24 hours, but dating was a part of life. "I hope so...because I am sure you will have mine by then."
Nero smiled at her, he caressed her cheek again and pulled her into another kiss. It then occured to him that they had their first kiss... in the heat of all of the drama... and it was so... great.. and... special.
Ana kissed Nero back. It had not dawned her that they had not had their first kiss yet. She was just lost in the kiss. It was such a good kiss. Which was good, because usually a kiss told Ana if she liked a guy or not and according to this kiss she liked Nero. A lot
Nero ran his other hand gently up her arm and let it rest on her other cheek. He then put his arms around her gently. Was this going too far for them? He didn't know... it was just a kiss right?
Ana was not about to push anything. She did not want to move too fast...too soon and she had a feeling sleeping with him would seem desperate. Plus that was the old her. Not the new her. But she enjoyed the kiss. How could she break it. Ana had no idea what she was in for, but now she was in. Ana broke the kiss and put her forhead against Nero's, "We should eat or else I may not stop kissing you..."