Giving up (Skye, Open Tags)

[skyeturner]

She was done, so far beyond done, she could literally scream. She had been willing to put herself out on the line, give him that chance, and what had she found not 10 minutes after sending the text? Him flirting and hanging all over some girl, and then a guy at lunch? So much for liking her. So much for putting her heart on her sleeve, he had just ripped it off and smashed it under his shoe.

After school had been let out, she had practically bolted from the building. What was the point anymore? There was none. Her mother was gone, she hadn't wanted her. Her father made it no secret that she was not wanted, her brothers were off living their own lives. Skye knew that she needed to get out of this depressive cycle, but it was proving harder this time then before.

This was not her first run around this block, and truth be told, she was starting to think that she was not strong enough to make it out again. She had been off the meds too long. No one knew, save her sperm donor, about her issues. not Nero, not Nate, no one, and Brian had refused to pay for her therapist or the meds back in Salem.

She had tried to find her connections back to life, but every which way she turned, they were broken, shattered. She felt like the walls were closing in and she didn't now how to get out.

Skye sat on the hood of her car, leaning back against the windshield. Her eyes were closed against the glare of the sun and she just tuned it all out.

[findingnemo]

Nero had been going through the motions of the day. His whole day was just to get out and go see Ana. He didn't pay attention much in class at all today and he knew why. He just wanted to get out.

He walked out of the school building and was well on his way to his car when he noticed Skye laying on her car against her windshield. He wondered if he should even stop to talk to her. He didn't know what he was supposed to do. Ignore her and keep walking like he didn't see her or stop and be a friend no matter what she said to him.

"Hey." he said quietly.

He was wearing a pair of black cargo pants on and a black wife beater. His hair changed yet again this time to lime green and purple. He had it down but pushed a hand through it. He had a lime green belt on and a pair of white sneakers.

He stuffed his hands in his pockets and looked over in her direction. Maybe she would talk to him instead of ignoring him or going off on him like she had been doing lately. He was kind of getting tired of that and he couldn't stand it.

[skyeturner]

Her dark and troubled thoughts were broken with a single word, uttered from someone she was sure would never speak to her again. She had been so rotten to him, she knew it. He had ever right to be happy with someone else, just because she was screwed up and miserable didn't mean he had to be.

"Hi.." She managed to say, her voice breaking just enough to signal that something was wrong. Now if he turned and walked away, she could and would not blame him in the least. She deserved it, she deserved to be unhappy and alone, she was worthless. Wasn't that what Brian kept repeating to her every night?

She sat up, turning her face away so that she could wipe hidden tears away without him seeing them. "I didn't think you'd be speaking to me again, I've been horrid to you lately..and I'm sorry...you should be with Ana and be happy with her..you don't need my drama, you never did. " She told him quietly, moving to sit on the edge of the car, her shoes resting on the tire.

Her skin was pale minus the flush to her cheeks brought on by tears, and the dark circles under her eyes.

[findingnemo]

Nero attempted to hide a look of concern when he heard the crackle her voice seemed to harbor as she spoke to him. He saw her face and felt instant anger toward whoever made her feel this bad. He didn't know if it were him or if it were someone else... but he didn't feel the need to ask her that.

"You don't need to apologize... thank you for it... but you don't need to. I understand your anger... sort of... but what I didn't understand was why you just came off so... heartless..." he paused then continued as if explaining the 'heartless' part. "You never ever talked to me like that and you never ever pushed me away. If anything... I was the one person you let in." he told her. "I can see where you would be angry with me on that basis but... please... don't push me away." he told her.

He looked into her tear stained eyes and took a breath and put a hand on her shoulder.

"What's wrong?" he asked her finally. "Is it me or is it someone else?" he asked. "Cuz.. if it's someone else I'll kick their ass... if it's me.. I'll uhm... kick my own ass... but either way there will be ass kicking." he told her - in a jest-like manner but in all seriousness.

He then moved to lean on the hood of her car next to her.

[skyeturner]

Skye sniffed, pulling more tears back, she did not need to cry now. She hated this, hated being so pathetic and useless.She knew what she needed but she was just not in the position money wise to take care of it.

Nero said she hadn't needed to apologize, which was a lie. Yes she did, shew as truly awful and horrid. The Skye he had known never treated anyone like that, then again, the Skye he had known had been a happy, sweet, medicated person. He asked about why she had seemed so heartless, so cold. Skye took a deep breath before looking at him to answer. "I'm not like I used to be Nero...things are different.."

She paused for a moment, wondering if she should tell him everything. "I never told you, but after my mom left, I started have issues with depression...really bad ones. At that point, Brian would at least still pretend to care, so I started seeing a therapist, and when you and I got together, I was under medication to keep me from dropping to that level." She ra a hand through her hair. "When we moved to Salem, I was ok for a while, had my doc out there and everything, but Brian started his usual crap. About 6 months before we moved back, started having money issues, couldn't afford my therapist anymore, or my meds.."

"So I was already in a bad place when I found out about you and Ana, and that neither of your faults and i'm sorry. I just, couldn't really stop it." She said softly.

"As for what's wrong right now..no it's not you, not you at all. This morning..when you kissed me and I didn't kiss you back, it wasn't beacause I didn't want to, but because I have...had feelings for someone else. His name is Nate. He actually goes to Silver, but he's sharing my locker...but we knew each other in Salem. I moved there...he moved here...I moved back a few years later. We've been hanging out a lot lately. I had a thing for him back in Salem, but he had problems with drugs and alcohol...and you know I don't do well around that, so nothing ever happened."

"He's sober now, which is good for him..and I know he likes me and everything, so this morning, I sent him a text saying I wanted to give things try, and every time I have seen him today, he's been all over some other girl..or guy as I saw at lunch." Skye said, feeling the tears start back up, which she furiously wiped away. "I'm so....so sick of putting myself through this...I knew it was a bad idea...I freaking knew it Ne...I gave him the chance and he just...takes my heart and breaks it."

A heavy sigh passed her lips as she managed to bury her face in his shoulder, , her occasional sniffts the only indication that she was still crying.

[anaromano]

Deapite everything Ana was happy. She had Nero and he had been great. Perhaps she was stupid and asking for it. NBut Nero had seemed sincere. Although Ana would ahve like to tell Nero not to hang around Skye, she knew that would have been wrong. So Ana had to show she trusted Nero, but it was so hard. Ana still felt hurt over everything that happened. She still felt jealous and it sucked. Ana was not the jealous kind. Sure she had trust issues, but never jealous.

Nero said all the right things, but...then he kissed Skye. Twice and things like that just made Ana feel like an idiot. He kissed a woman twice, but yey wanted Ana to heal his heart. Americans were so confusing sometimes. Ana went to school. She actually welcomed the dirstraction. She lef tintent on getting her son and going home. She figured she would call Nero and invite him over later.

Ana walked into the parking lot and toward the bus since her Aunt had the car. She walked through the cars when she spotted Nero. Ana smiled and headed tward him, but then she saw him place his hand on Skye's shoulder. Then he leaned close to her next to the car and the jealousy flared. Ana felt like the biggest idiot. Had Nero lied. Was Nero playing Ana. Was she going to be the other woman. Ana decided to confront Nero. She needed to know. As she walked voer she heard Skye talking about some other guy. Yet is was so muffled Ana could not really hear it all. Especially since she was to their backs.

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(OOC: Going to put Nate's reply here for this one time. I know its very short, but i will make a longer reply next time.)


Nate had never gotten Skye's text. Had he gottne it he enver would ahve flirted with the girl. As for DJ that was just to piss Jay off. it meant nothing. Nate smiled as he headed out the door and to the parking lot to his car. He saw Skye with some guy and some jealousy went through him. So Nate walked over and decided to ask Skye about it. "Hey whats going on?"

[findingnemo]

Nero held Skye to him, as if she was some sort of frail little girl. In this case, he thought she might be just that. Frail. She was never like that in his eyes. "Nate?" he asked her. Yeah a twinge of anger came through him as she spoke telling him everything that was going on. He wanted to beat the hell out of this Nate kid.

She nodded into his chest, having moved more into his arms. He still smelled the same, that ever present cologne and his hair dye, it was a scent that would always bring her back to him. "I feel so stupid, I never should have.." She replied, her voice muffled. However, she heard a voice, nate's voice and she turned, anger darkening her blue eyes. "Go away." She said simply. "Leave me alone Nate."

Nero looked up as he noticed this guy coming up and talking to them. He had no clue who the guy even was until Skye seemed to go all Dark Knight on him. Ok whoa... so this must be the guy that Skye was talking about. And he felt the protectiveness in him rise as he looked at the guy. Who the hell did he think he was? "Look... dude... you need to just leave her alone right now." he told him. "She doesn't want to see you... and if you know any better... you won't try while I'm here." he told him lifting a brow. He may have been crazy looking and all kinds of fun to anyone else but when he needed to be he was the serious guy Skye needed. Her protector if nothing else. Like old times.

it was then that Skye turned, and caught Ana out of the corner of her eyes. "Nee...Ana's here..go.." She said softly.

Nero looked up and noticed Ana. He wanted to go over to Ana but he didn't want to leave Skye vulnerable to this... this prick. He looked back down at Skye and lifted a brow. "But... Nate." he said quietly to her. He looked back up to Ana and tried a smile but failed miserably. He was too worried at this point about Skye.

[Nate Kane]

(Characters: Nate/Ana)

Nate had no idea why Skye told him to go away. He told her he liked her, but he was still Nate. How could Skye expect him to just change. it was not gonna happen. Nate flirted naturally. But last Nate checked Skye said she could not trust him. So when he got the attitude Nate got pissed. "What's wrong? Skye what did I do now?" It seemed like he was always doing something wrong with Skye. Nate got sick and tired of it some times. However, he liked her. She was his friend, but he was not going to stop flirting.

"Shut up dude. This has nothing to do with you. its between me and her." Nate told Nero. Nate eyed Skye, "Look call me when what ever is going on is over....." Nate told Skye. He was not going to sit here and let this guy get in his face for something Nate knew nothing about. He had no idea why Skye was mad.

Ana watched as Nero help Skye close. It just pissed her off. She felt like a fool. Like an idiot. Here she was standing here watching her boyfriend hug another woman. A woman he claimed to love and kissed twice and here Ana was standing just watching. Ana just shook her head. Then Nero tired to smile. he did not even say hi or walk over and try to explain. he stayed by Skye's side. So Ana just shook her head and turned the other way to walk away. She was too pissed to say a damn thing. it would just come out in Russian.

Nate noticed Ana walk off and headed in her way. He came up beside her and smiled, "You look about as bad as I feel. You know that guy."

Ana looked at Ana, "I do not know anymore....." Ana told Nate in her Russian accent.

Nate smiled and nodded, "Well the girl he is with is mad at me for some reason and I do not know why. So its nice to meet you. I am Nate."

Ana let out a tiny laugh, "Ana.....nice meet you. He boyfriend to me...ex to her, but now I afraid I might be wrong."

Nate looked back for a moment. "Yeah i like the girl, but she doesn't trust me. So in feel for you." Nate extended his hand to shake her hand, "Nice to meet you too."

Ana shook Nate's hand.

[delilahamello]

"Nero..got to Ana..she looks really upset.." Skye said softly, moving away from her friend and looking at Nate and Ana. "Ana, there's nothing going on..he's just being a friend, I promise..and I'm sorry." She said to the Russian girl, hoping that she would at least stay to let Nero explain further.

It took only a couple of steps before Skye had shoved Nate away from Ana. "She's involved...trust me." She glared at him. "What did you do?!" She snapped. "You couldn't wait could you...I agree this morning to be with you..cause deny it all I want, I want you...and you just have to go play in other's pools."

She didn't care if there were others in the parking lot that were hearing. "I am sick of being walked over..I am not your doormat, I am not my father's doormat..I cannot believe that I was stupid enough to want to be with you....I was never gonna be good enough..." She yelled, tears evidant in her dark blue eyes.

Digging her keys out of her bag, her hands shaking, resulting in them being dropped, Skye looked at Ana. "Nero really cares about you..please don't blame him for this..he was only trying to help me."

She managed to unlock her car, pulling the door open.



(lol, Im lazy, and forgot to change logins..this is a Skye post..not a Dee post)

[Nate Kane]

(Characters: Nate/Ana)

Ana listened. What was this girl trying to pull. She was jsut dissing Ana like a day ago and now all the sudden she was being nice. Something was up and Ana did not beleive it. This girl spent so much time putting Nero through the ringer about being friends adn cutting him off and now here she was saying Nero cares for you Ana, do no blame him. What was she doing? It was as if she was trying to look like the victim and the good guy? Well Ana was too jealous. "Thats the problem. He ios always trying to help you....I am not so sure how he feels." Ana said to them. She gave a sad look, "But tis does no involve me. I leave you all alone." Ana said softly before she started to turn to walk away. She did not trust any of this.

Nate eyed Skye, "What the hell? I do not care if she is involved. You are acting like I am going to try and fuck her. My god...is that all you think I do." Nate said to Skye. "What are you talking about this morning? I have not seen or heard from you all damn day." Nate told her. He did not get what she was talking about. This morning. He never saw her. Well he saw her with Nero but that was it. After that he walked the other way and went about his day.

"All I have done today is be myself. Which is someone you seem to not be able to accept. Afterall you can't trust me right." Nate said to her. "By the way shoving me is a nice move considering. Good enough..you were the one who told me I was not able to be trusted. That you could not be with a guy like me. I am not fucking perfect Skye. You want perfect then go to the movies. But I am sick of you treating me like the damn ass villian. I am not the villian. I have no fucking clue what you are talking about in terms of this morning, but I am sick all this stupid shit."