Is this the end or the beginning... Haley tag cam

[Haley Rowan]

Haley was still unsure of what went down at the pep rally yesterday. Had she and Cam really broken up? It was surreal. This should not be happening. Her heart should not feel so heavy right now, this is Cam and she is Haley. As mean as this is to think about she should be the one not hurting while Cam is hurting. She should not be affected by a dork dumping her.

But she was. Haley was deeply hurt and was crying over it. Cause when it came right down to it, she cared about Cam more then she might be willing to admit even to him. She always had feelings for Cam. Her friends could call him a dork, but he was HER dork and she liked it that way. Haley liked Cam, a lot. He was smart, charming, adorable, silly, shy, intimidating and easy to talk to. It helped that he kind of worshiped her, Haley could be a bit of a vain person in that respect.

At the end of the day Haley felt the same way. She enjoyed dating Cam. he was different from the other guys in Haley's life and he liked comics like she did and could talk in terms that went over her head, which was oddly enough a turn on. She liked hearing him blab about computers and leave her in the dust, but she found it attractive in him. Now here was single, all because of some stupid argument and flirtation, which meant nothing.

So now Haley was home alone on a Saturday. Wishing she could just forget yesterday all together. Mr. Rowan look in on his daughter with sad eyes. He hated seeing his little girl all upset. He hated having the whole relationship talk with her, but her mother was a flake. However Haley seemed to not want to talk. She seemed to enjoy being alone in her room lately. Mr. rowan had a business thing to go to anyway and could not be here so he told the house keeper to look after Haley.

When the door bell rang Mr. Rowan was the one to answer it since he was on his way out. Mr Rowan eyed Cam, "Lovers Quarrel huh...I remember those....I do not envy you kid." He said to Cam, "She is in her room." With that said Mr. Rowan walked right by Cam and to the car waiting for him.

[Cameron Whitlock III]

Saying Cam was a mess was a severe understatement. Wreck, seemed to fit better...or perhaps disaster was more fitting. He'd gone home on Friday and he hadn't left his room since. His parents had brought him food, but he'd hardly ate anything. Even though it was the weekend it seemed that word had spread about his and Haley's "breakup" during the pep rally. This stung the worse. He hadn't even been aware that they were broken up. He thought it was just a fight... But she'd gone and told all the cheerleaders that she was single and it seemed to be all over facebook and people's messenger statuses. Cam couldn't even go near a computer, because it made him want to puke.

It was around lunch time when he finally couldn't take it anymore. He got up and left his room. He didn't look well. His eyes were red and puffy from crying and his hair was flat and stuck to his head since he hadn't bothered to shower this morning. It was a miracle he'd managed to put on some clothes...

He got in his car and started driving. He drove past Haley's house at least 6 times before finally getting the courage to go there. He felt stupid and weak and he wasn't even sure what he'd say when he saw her. This whole thing was a whole huge mess and Cam just wanted it to be over. He couldn't believe he'd told Tyler off and then just walked away... He'd walked away from Haley...who was really the only person he ever wanted to be around. He'd made a mess of everything. He shouldn't have drank so much at the party...he should have been there for her and then when she'd gotten angry about it, he should have just apologized. But Tyler had been there and Cam had gotten jealous...

He took a deep breath before ringing the doorbell, frowning when Haley's dad answered. He didn't feel like dealing with him. Usually he was polite no matter what her father said to egg him on and make him feel uncomfortable. But he couldn't deal with it now...he couldn't handle it. But luckily Haley's dad didn't mess with him right now and while Cam was too weak to say anything, he made a mental note to thank him later as he made his way to Haley's room. He knocked lightly on the door a moment before opening it and peaking inside. "Hey," he said, his voice was quiet and he both sounded and looked defeated.

[Haley Rowan]

Haley was not sure why she had told Shelby to spread the word. Seeing Cam walk away just kind of made Haley speak before thinking it through. He walked away and thats all she saw. Even when she yelled at Cam to come back, he still walked away. it hurt. By now Haley had many calls all asking how she was doing. Some sounded happy about the break up, other sounded indifferent. Haley just sounded sad and pathetic according to a few friends.

Haley knew the popular crowd would never fully accept Cam, but if he at least tried to show he could hang with them, she thought it would be easier. Apparently she should not have thought that. Haley never should have forced the party on Cam, or forced him to even go. She should have let him make up his own mind, but she just wanted her boyfriend there. That was the wrong move it seemed like.

Haley was still in her pj's. A tank top and shorts, no bra of course. she was laying in bed. She had barely eaten cause she was not hungry. the thought of food repulsed her, but she was drinking water like a fish. Crying made her thirsty. Haley looked like a mess. No make up on, her hair was pulled back and not even brushed. She had brushed her teeth, though. So that was a step, but not even a shower crossed her mind. Then again she had taken one before bed.

Haley heard the knock and thought it was Rosa. "Rosa go away." She called not wanting to be checked up on and asked for the hundredth time if she was hungry. But when she heard the meek soft voice of a guy, not just any guy, but Cam Haley looked up. Her face had been buried in the pillow. Haley moved on her bed to sit up. "Oh, come in." She said softly.

"What are you doing here?" She asked. Haley was biting back the need to say something snippy, like now you come back, or now you want to talk to me. But instead she just looked around the room, then at the floor and finally back at Cam waiting to find out what this was about.

[Cameron Whitlock III]

Cam walked into Haley's room, slowly and with his head slightly down. It felt so awkward, which he hated because it never felt awkward with Haley...that was one of the reason's he liked her so much. She was always so perfect. And it didn't feel strange like it did when he was with all the other girls.

He sat down on her bed, his eyes focused on his lap. He was actually afraid to look her in the eyes. He sat there for a moment in silence still focusing on his lap until he finally gained the courage to look at her. She looked like a mess. Was it possible that she was also upset about him? Or maybe she's slept with Tyler last night ans she was a mess from all that...

"So...I heard...I heard that you told everyone we broke up," he said. His voice was weak but he tried to keep it even. He didn't want to start crying again, but it was really hard not to. "I mean...I guess, I guess I just wanted to...you know...make sure that that's what you wanted," he said. "I mean...I thought we just had a fight, and then I have to here that we're broken up...from people that aren't even you.."

Cam's bottom lip quivered and his bit it to keep himself from crying. "Haley...I...I don't want to break up. I know that I messed up with the party but you don't have to jump on Tyler every time I'm not around! You have no idea how much I care about you..." He couldn't hold it in. The tears began to come...tears of shame. Tyler wouldn't have cried...

"I gave up school for you. I had my early admission at MIT...and I turned it down. I can't go there anymore... I applied to other places...that I know I'll get into...but I was going to go somewhere close by for next year. I still have some time though...to decide...I guess...if you're with Tyler now," Cameron said, wiping the tears away with the back of his hand. "I'm sorry...I should go. I..." Cam shook his head, "I ...should go," he said, although he didn't move at all...he couldn't....it hurt to much to think that if he left it might be for good. The thought of losing Haley was too much to bare...

[Haley Rowan]

It was like rubbing salt into a bleeding wound to hear Cam speak. It hurt and Haley's heart felt so heavy. To see tears in his eyes made Haley want to cry. Then as if she could not feel any worse, to hear he gave up school, to stick by LA to be close to her, was just painful. Of course Haley was glad, but she knew that was selfishness talking. Cam should not give up his dream just for her. It was wrong. She was quiet for a few moments. Haley just looked at Cam not seeing him move. She didn't ever want to see him walk away.

Haley grabbed his hand, "Don't......don't go." Her voice was soft and sounded as if it was breaking a little. "I want you to stay." She told him. "I never wanted to break up, but when I saw you walk away and not look back I was sure you were done with me." She told him. Haley moved closer holding Cam's hand between both of her hands and placing her hands on her lap. "I am sorry if what you saw with Tyler, hurt you, but it means nothing. I swear. I would never, ever go that far when I am dating someone else."

Haley looked at his hand between hers then looked back up. A few tears had fallen down her own cheeks, "I said we broke up out of anger over you walking away. I was so hurt, cause I was mad about Thursday and then the fight yesterday....I spoke without thinking." She sniffled a little. "I felt ignored on Thursday. I know you passed out but I didn't even know you were at the party and I really wanted you by my side, to be there with me. I guess it was stupid of me to get mad over being ignored. I did tell you to drink after all." Haley still felt ignored cause he passed out before anything started, but perhaps it was her fault.

"Cam I never asked you to give up MIT. Why? Why would you do that?" Haley asked. "That's your dream." She claimed looking at him. "You are too smart to throw your future away over me, especially since its selfish of me to be happy you would be sticking around. But I shouldn't be selfish, its wrong and dumb and just makes me not deserve a guy like you." She said softly. "I have been selfish a lot lately. I thought I could bring you into my world and have you drink and hang with my friends, but I realize I was forcing that on you and that was just.....bad...." Haley told Cam. Although being a part of each others world was a part of dating. Haley still felt selfish for it.

"What do we do now?"

[Cameron Whitlock III]

Cameron felt kind of like the Grinch who tried to steal Christmas. No, not because he'd been a mean or a grinch in anyway, but because he was pretty sure that his heart grew three sizes the moment Haley said that she wanted him to stay and didn't want to break up. It was like the weight of the world had been lifted from him and suddenly everything would be okay. Maybe they still had things to work out...but she didn't want to break up with him, so it would be okay.

"And I'm sorry about Thursday," Cam said. "I'm just not used to being at parties and I didn't know what to do or how to act and I dunno...I want to be there for you...even at parties...I just messed up," he said. "And you didn't even tell me why you were mad...all I knew was that you wouldn't talk to me and everyone was saying that you were flirting with Tyler during the party....then when I went to come find you, you were with him again and I guess I sort of just exploded," Cam admitted. He shook his head, "I still can't believe I told him off...he's not gonna like...beat me up or anything, is he?" he asked, although he supposed he probably deserved it.

Cam moved closer to Haley and kissed her tears away. "Haley...you don't understand...I don't care about school. You're more important," he said. And then not even really thinking it through, he new it was time to say it. He'd been holding back for awhile now because he didn't think Haley was in the same place. And maybe she wasn't now, but he didn't care. She needed to know. "I love you, Haley" he said. "I think part of me has from the beginning but since we started dating and since we've been together...it just keeps getting stronger and stronger. The rest of my acceptance letters are going to come in April 1st and its not like I'm not going to get in everywhere I applied. I'd rather be with you. If you want to go to Boston for school, I can transfer into MIT or I can go there for grad school or for a PHD...there are still like a ton of possibilities for me. School's not important, I know I can have that whenever I want it...but all I want is you," he said.

Cam pulled Haley into his arms. "You're not selfish. If you were, you never would have dated me openly in the first place, you would have kept me a secret, because come on, we both know I would have went for it," he admitted. "So, I don't know what we do now, all I know is that I want it to involve being with you..." he said, giving her a squeeze. "I really do love you," he whispered, hoping that everything could be alright now. There was still a lot to deal with of course. Cam was going to have to find a way to fit in better, not to mention that everyone in school now thought that he and Haley had broken up.

[Haley Rowan]

Haley looked down briefly, then back up. "I should have told you I was mad and felt ignored, I just didn't want to seem like a spoiled brat about it. I mean you came to the party. I just....I mean it would have been nice to have you by my side as well. I should have told you that, but I didn't know how to handle it...so I choose to ignore you. Not the best way to handle things obviously. I am sorry too. As for Tyler I was only with him part of the night. Yes we flirted....but nothing would ever happen with him. I left him to go mingle with other people and left him to do what he does. I know I messed up too that night, but for what its worth I spent most of the night with Aly and Trixie, the other cheerleaders." Haley said.

"As for what you saw outside the locker room, he was just being a friend. I know it looked bad and part of me kind of wanted to hurt you, which I know was another stupid move on my part. But Tyler is really nothing more then a friend. I know he flirts, is just who Tyler is, but out of respect for you I can make sure Tyler is more on friend behavior instead of ...you know." Haley hoped that helped, "He won't beat you up. Tyler is probably more scared of you...because I know you ruin his face and that would be a blow to Tyler's ego." Haley said trying to make Cam feel better by showing she believed he could beat Tyler.

The next saet of words took her by surprise. She didn't know what to say. I love you, was such strong words and she was not sure that's what she felt yet. Did she say it back even if she didn't mean it yet, or did she wait. Lucky for her Cam pulled her close and kept talking about school. Haley settled in Cam's arms. "But Cam...MIT is what you have always wanted. You sure you won't resent me for taking away your chance at school. I really think you should go." She said softly. "I want you to be happy." She said pulling his arms around her.

"We can always talk about school later, but don't give up MIT yet. Please promise me you won't." Haley looked back at him as she stayed in his arms. He said the words again. Haley smiled. "I can't say it back yet....cause when I do I want to mean it...but I like you so much Cam....more then I think you realize." She hoped he was okay and was not hurt she couldn't say them back.

[Cameron Whitlock III]

Cam didn't really need Haley to apologize. She wanted to be with him and knowing that was all that he needed. He also appreciated her telling him that he could take Tyler, although he knew very well that it wasn't true. Tyler was a football player and Cam was the guy who was beat up by football players. He didn't need to pretend he was strong and could fight when he very well couldn't. It would have been silly of him to try.

Although for awhile now, Cam had suspected that Haley's feelings weren't quite as strong as his, it was still sort of a let down to learn that he had indeed been right...she didn't love him back, not yet at least. And further more she was telling him he should go away. Deep down, Cam knew that Haley was just trying to do what she thought he wanted, but combined with the blow of not in love with you yet, it didn't exactly give Cam a warm fuzzy feeling inside, even if they were back together for now.

Cameron stroked her hair with his hand, not wanting to let her know he was upset. After all, he shouldn't be asking any more of her. Being with her was enough, or at least Cam hoped it was. "Yeah...well, I have another two months to figure out school," he said. His letter to say he was officially declining the acceptance was already written, addressed, and stamped. All he had to do was stick it in a mailbox, but perhaps he'd wait on that. Maybe Haley was right...maybe he shouldn't give up his future, or change it rather, just yet.

[Haley Rowan]

There was so much Haley wanted to say, but the words just got caught in her throat and in the end she didn't say anything. She told him to go, wanting him to stay. She was sorry she couldn't say i love you back, but the fact she really cared for him, Haley hoped that was enough. Cause she did, "Just...be more honest with me okay. I need to do that with you. Relationships don't work if we keep our feelings hidden. Thats more for me though, since I am the one who didn't say anything." She told Cam. Haley ran her hands up and down Cam's arms.

She knew she should be more upfront about her feelings, but Haley knew the moment Cam told everyone he was not going to MIT everyone would blame Haley and say she was holding him back. If he did not go then it was his choice, but Haley did not want to be a determining factor, even though she really didn't want him to go. She liked having Cam around. A lot. She was shocked at how fast she was falling for the guy.

"So want to so something today? Or we can just stay up here. My dad won't be back till tomorrow." Who knows where her mother was. "Unless you have to go, which is fine. I don't want to ruin any plans you may already have, but...thank you for coming over. I really didn't want to break up." Haley admitted. It was stupid of her to have said that, but she had done it in a moment of anger. "You are special you know that. Special to me."

[Cameron Whitlock III]

"Right," Cam said when Haley went on about how they needed to do a better job of sharing their feelings since she'd failed to tell him the she was angry at him. Did that mean that he was supposed to admit that he was disappointed that she didn't love him back? No...it would just cause more conflict...Cameron didn't want more conflict. He just wanted to be with his Haley for as long as she wanted him around. But maybe it would be a little foolish of him to officially send his not going letter just yet. He had time after all...

Cameron didn't really think about what people would think if he stayed in LA to be with Haley. What everyone else would think wasn't on his mind. And it didn't occur to him that people would think he was being stupid for giving up school to be with a girl. Cam was actually classified as a genius...he could have already been in college if he wanted but his parents hadn't wanted him to skip too many grades because they were afraid he wouldn't be able to socialize with people so much older than him. Even skipping two grades had been hard. Maybe deferring was the answer. Now as it stood, he wouldn't turn 17 until more than halfway through his freshman year. If he waited a year he'd be closer to the right age...no one would blame him for that...would they? But Haley wanted him to go away...didn't see, at least that's what Cam though.

Cameron smiled when Haley changed the subject to what to do today. He liked this much better, mostly because it meant all the heavy stuff was done with for now. "Well, I kind of didn't shower before coming here," he admitted. "I wouldn't mind going out...but I think I'm a little gross right now..." Haley didn't exactly look her best either, but Cam thought she was beautiful no matter what...even all puffy eyed from crying earlier. "I don't have any plans though," he assured her. "Maybe we should hang out here for a bit and shower and then go out somewhere," he suggested. He actually would have preferred to stay in all day having sex with Haley, but he'd settle for just a shower with her, mostly because he wanted to take her out...he wanted to run into people from school and show them all that he wasn't going anywhere and Haley and him were still very much together.